Nothing is good enough.
Too much punctuation
Not enough punctuation.
lowercase adds to the poetry
But looks wrong.
Stop.
Backspace
Not good enough…
Will people want to read this?
Of course not
they don’t care.
Change it so it appeases my
friends*
on social media who I don’t really
Know.
Wait.
Delete.
Distract.
Delay.
Wait for a better idea
something that is profound
that will get a thousand likes and
hundreds of shares.
What do my friends and family
want to hear?
Will they be proud of me?
[no]
Not good enough…
Wait.
why am I trying to appease
everyone else
but me,
the author
poet
writer
[fraud]
Move those words around.
They don’t make sense like that.
[Stupid}
Too many judgments
I can’t catch them all
They’re heavy
I’m
falling.
The weight
is too great
…
endless.
the pit is endless.
i can’t get back up.
too much self
judgment.
I’m tired.
Too tired
to try again.
put down the rope.
Her voice is in my head
Like a lighthouse
swinging it’s light
round and round
to bring ships home
to safety.
Put down the rope.
Let go of the judgments.
It’s ok
I know you can do it
[artist]
It will be messy
Art is messy
Art is not just for everyone
else.
Art is for you.
Put down the rope
Your hands are raw and bleeding.
There’s no need to be perfect.
[no one is perfect]
No.
No one is perfect.
Time to be messy
Put down the rope
and smear those bloody hands
on your canvas.
Delete the punctuation
do what is unconventional
do what is joyful
do what is creative
for you.
one by one
I let the judgments go
and I float
back to the start
the blank page.
open mind
open heart
open soul
I rise.
putting down the rope 