some days i have so much to pour out
but writing it breaks my heart into
even smaller pieces
how do you heal
when your coping skill
makes it hurt
that much more
Month: August 2018
two years later
jessica,
i’m thinking about you today.
i’m thinking of all the things i never said.
i’m thinking of all the time i let pass before reaching out to you.
i’m thinking about how lonely i feel some days, and i wonder if you felt the same way.
i hope somewhere you are reading this.
i hope someday i will get the chance to talk to you again.
i hope that wherever you are, you are still creating beautiful art.
i hope i won’t ever forget about you and the light and laughter you brought to so many.
i want to give you a hug.
i want to tell you about my art projects.
i want to tell you how much you are loved, even now.
i want to tell you how much you continue to inspire me and push me to be a better artist.
love always,
k
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i don’t even know her mother’s name
or what side of the bed she likes to sleep on,
how she takes her coffee
or how many times she’s had her heart broken
all i know is that i’ve found myself at her side
wanting nothing more than to tuck her under my skin
so that she will always be with me
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there is something about the way she looks at me
that allows me to see past her eyes and into her mind
and there i can see everything laid bare
just waiting to be discovered
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i don’t understand
what it is about you
that makes me want to
stay up all night
and watch the moon
hanging in the sky
because i know
it’s the same moon
you see
ANNOUNCEMENTS & EXPOSURES!
Hello beautiful people!
Today was a very big day for me! A lot of people saw I made multiple Instagram Live videos to share some exciting announcements that I’ve got for y’all! I figured folks who don’t have Instagram would want to hear the news, too, so here you go!
First of all, drumroll…
I’m starting a podcast!
Yes, you read that correctly! I’m putting myself out there and am starting a podcast that will also be titled Putting Down the Rope. I plan on branching off of this blog and diving more into mental health and its relationship to art. I will be interviewing guests, accepting stories from folks who would prefer to remain anonymous (and I will read the stories on the podcast), and featuring music/poetry/writing/art in any auditory medium (and will even link to visual art in the description of the podcast).
If you would like to be involved, PLEASE send me an email at PuttingDownTheRope@gmail.com. I will always be available to chat, bounce ideas around, and hear your story. This podcast is about you as much as it is about me.
Now, second of all…
I am raising money to fund my new project that merges mental health awareness with art! You can see the inspiration for my project here.
Basically, I want to show others that art can be used as a coping skill for things like self harm, poor body image, recovery from eating disorders or addictions, and beyond. The concept is that my subjects paint their bodies on parts of themselves they find the most vulnerable, or parts of themselves they struggle with. For me, it was self-harm. I knew using paint would be a more effective skill than actually self harming, and it actually had a better result in the long run.
My overall goal is to show others that they are seen, they are beautiful– because I think folks with mental illnesses often get overlooked or don’t think they’re special or beautiful– and above all, they are not alone.
The problem is, I currently don’t have the key ingredient to this project: a camera!
So, I started a GoFundMe! My anxiety was very much telling me not to publish that, but here it is. I need help to make this dream a reality. I plan on buying a super cheap DSLR and the lens my friend recommended for portraits. I believe wholeheartedly in this project, and I think it will take off.
I would so appreciate any donation you can give. You can find the link at https://www.gofundme.com/cameraphoto-series.
Thirdly…
I made today’s Instagram live videos an added exposure and I played a song I recorded on live video. Un-flippin’-real.
Those who know me are very aware that I hate singing in public, or in front of anyone, really. Yet, today, I did the thing I have been most terrified of for a many, many years now. And it feels awesome. Just had to share that with the blog. 🙂 #WarriorPrincess
Lastly…
I’ve had some major mental health setbacks lately. And here I am, coming back swinging. I am so excited about life and what life has to offer, and I want to inspire others to find that spark, that zest for life, too!
I’m telling you, when you put down that rope, the world opens up. I can’t wait to share all that will follow.
Endless love to all!
K
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