in my dreams
you hold me
yet when i wake
i am devestated
to see my arms empty
come fill the void
or leave me floating in space
because imagining you
just out of reach
is excruciating
in my dreams
you hold me
yet when i wake
i am devestated
to see my arms empty
come fill the void
or leave me floating in space
because imagining you
just out of reach
is excruciating
floating like a lily pad
past all of the drifting flowers
freely opening their leaves
to the sun as the wind blows them
why am i the one
the frogs land on
while they observe the view
i would give anything
to be something that
draws attention like that
and yet
i love being there
to support the frog
to keep him out of the water
while he takes in the view
do you have any idea what it’s like
to sit in a tub of ice water
crying to the walls that surround you
as you shiver uncontrollably
begging your mind to stop
stop betraying you
willing your hands to remain trembling
rather than striking out against you
on a night i want burned deep into the flesh
of my memory
like a burn
a scar that will never fade
i hold tightly
to you
the stranger
with a smile that lit a fire somewhere deep inside me
long strong nimble fingers
that floated through the air along with your words
my legs quivering beneath the weight of your
lips on mine
i know i will soon forget
the scar will fade
slipping off my memory bank
back into the darkness of my mind
so i must hold on now
hold on as tight as i can
until i know i must let go
feeling should not be wasted
despite time being ever fleeting
expelling you from my mind
is like expelling air from my lungs
utterly impossible
you look at your reflection
and see a caterpillar
small in stature
incapable of traveling far
minute among the world
surrounding you
i look at you
and see a butterfly
stunning wings spread
taking up the space
you deserve
what you don’t realize
is that it doesn’t matter
if you are a caterpillar
or a butterfly
you are important
capturing hearts on
your journey
simply by being
you
-for gw
There is a brick on my chest
Every day a tall thin figure steps up to me
And places another brick on the last
Until it is exhausting for me
To even allow my chest to rise and fall
There’s too much pressure
I can’t remove it on my own
So instead I lie there
And let my perfectionism flatten me
how do you fix the disorder
when fixing it makes it feel worse
–confessions
your writing has gone
downhill lately
-my perfectionism
must art
come from pain?
art
birthed from
the hope
the friendships
the celebration
that follow
the sorrow
the struggle
the guilt
must i always be in pain
to create?